Misfit
in
middle
America
Mandy
M.
Roth
Dedication:
To
my
mother
who
never
once
stopped
pushing
me
to
dream
regardless
what
I
was
doing,
and
who
told
me
that
little
girls
can
grow
up
to
be
whatever
they
want
to
be.
To
my
stepfather,
who
dedicated
thirty
years
to
law
enforcement
and
who
has
been
a
member
of
our
family
for
eighteen
of
those.
And
to
my
father
whose
scary
movie
marathons
helped
me
to
grow
into
the
freak
I am
today.
Chapter
One
Adam
North
Maple
Ridge—a
tiny
town,
tucked
safely
away
in
the
middle
of
nowhere
America.
Bad
things
didn’t
happen
here.
I’d
know.
I’d
been
the
chief
of
police
for
ten
years.
I’d
brought
my
son
here
with
the
knowledge
hateful,
ugly
crimes
didn’t
reach
this
far
into
oblivion.
The
carnage
around
me
provided
how
very
wrong
I’d
been.
This
was
worse
than
anything
I’d
seen
being
a
big
city
detective.
I’d
known
Jonathon
Williams
since
I’d
come
to
town.
Never
did
I
dream
that
accepting
the
job
of
chief
of
police
in a
tiny,
rural
Midwest
community
would
amount
to
this.
If
Jonathon’s
brother,
Robert,
hadn’t
been
a
witness
to
the
crime,
I’m
not
sure
I’d
have
believed
the
body
was
Jonathon’s.
It
was
mutilated,
torn
to
shreds.
We’d
need
to
wait
for
official
word
from
testing,
but
I
knew
in
my
gut
the
remains
were
human
and
they
belonged
to
Jonathon.
The
boy
had
grown
into
a
man
before
my
eyes.
It
seemed
like
only
yesterday
he
was
coming
over
to
build
a
fort
with
my
son,
Justin.
I
could
still
hear
the
two
of
them
smacking
sticks
together,
pretending
to
be
defending
the
universe
from
evil
invaders.
Now
only
silence
filled
the
air.
I’d
have
given
anything
to
hear
the
echoes
of
past
play,
of
excited
children,
innocent
of
all
evil.
Jonathon,
two
weeks
shy
of
his
nineteenth
birthday,
was
now
dead.
His
life
senselessly
cut
short,
and
it
was
my
job
to
figure
out
who
or
what
did
it
and
why.
“It’s
days
like
this
that
I
hate
my
fucking
job,”
I
whispered
as I
walked
back
to
my
SUV.
Jonathon
wasn’t
the
first
victim.
At
the
rate
things
were
going,
he
wouldn’t
be
the
last,
and
I
was
no
closer
to
an
answer
than
I
had
been
weeks
ago
when
the
first
killing
occurred.
“Chief,
do
you
need
to
see
anything
else,
or
can
we
bag
’em
up?”
asked
Officer
Braun.
His
light
brown
hair
was
cut
close,
as
was
often
the
case
with
new
officers.
Many
thought
it
gave
them
a
certain
look,
an
extra
edge
of
authority.
Others
just
wanted
to
be
sure
that
their
hair
was
regulation
so
they
went
overboard.
Braun
struck
me
as
the
latter.
He
was
a
pleaser—the
type
of
guy
who
always
wanted
to
make
someone
else
happy
but
always
fearful
of
taking
the
lead.
He
was
new
to
police
work.
He’d
only
been
in
it a
year
now.
The
pay
here
was
decent
but
he
could
have
done
much
better
in
the
city.
His
father
had
been
an
officer
with
our
department
and
that
meant
something.
These
people
tended
to
keep
things
local.
Bringing
me
in
as
chief
had
been
a
big
deal.
For
nearly
a
year
it
was
all
anyone
seemed
to
talk
about.
Thankfully,
those
days
had
passed.
Now,
the
only
topic
on
anyone’s
mind
was
the
murders.
Braun
looked
a
little
green.
I
couldn’t
say
I
blamed
him.
The
prospect
of
bagging
up a
body
that’s
in
pieces
will
make
the
best
of
men
fall
to
their
knees.
This
wasn’t
our
first
and
I
feared
it
wouldn’t
be
our
last,
so I
nodded
my
head
for
him
to
finish
up.
Might
as
well
learn
to
handle
it
now,
I
thought
to
myself
as I
walked
away.
I
opened
my
SUV
door
to
head
to
the
Williams’
house
to
inform
them
of
their
son’s
death.
Robert
would
need
their
support
now,
and
I
was
pretty
sure
Mr.
Williams
would
be
able
to
offer
it.
Mrs.
Williams,
on
the
other
hand,
would
more
than
likely
be
too
distraught
over
the
loss
of
her
oldest
boy
to
be
much
good
to
Robert.
The
boy
had
managed
to
survive
a
brutal
attack
and
make
it
to
the
highway
to
flag
down
help.
The
paramedics
were
amazed
that
he
was
doing
as
well
as
he
was.
He’d
lost
a
ton
of
blood.
If
he
survived
the
night,
it’d
be a
miracle.
The
last
thing
any
of
us
wanted
was
for
the
Williams
to
have
to
bury
both
their
boys.
“Excuse
me,
Chief
Sisel,
can
I
ask
you
a
few
questions?”
I
heard
Beth
Murray’s
voice
before
I
saw
her.
I
thought
about
jumping
in
my
SUV
and
driving
off,
but
that
would
only
add
to
the
hysteria.
Plus,
I’d
look
like
a
pussy.
The
last
thing
I
wanted
to
do
was
be
cornered
by
her.
Beth
was
the
town’s
lead
reporter.
Come
to
think
of
it,
she
was
the
town’s
only
reporter.
Pushy,
demanding
and
sexy
as
all
get
out.
Just
being
near
her
had
a
tendency
to
make
my
dick
hard.
Hell,
thinking
about
her
did
the
trick.
She
and
I
had
a
history
of
not
seeing
eye
to
eye.
I’m
not
sure
how
it
was
we’d
gotten
off
on
the
wrong
foot
but
it
had
happened.
She’d
been
born
and
raised
here,
and
she
knew
everyone.
I
knew
that
she’d
gone
to
some
fancy
college
on
the
east
coast
for
a
while,
but
after
graduation,
she
headed
home.
I
wasn’t
a
native
here,
but
I
knew
the
area’s
appeal.
I
also
knew
that
in
Beth’s
world
I
was
a
primary
source
for
fact
verification
and
that
was
it.
If
the
town
had
had
automated
police
records,
I
was
sure
she’d
never
bother
to
speak
to
me.
She’d
skip
me
and
look
it
up
herself.
“You
can
ask,”
I
answered
succinctly.
“Doesn’t
mean
I’ll
answer.”
“I’d
expect
nothing
less,
Chief,”
she
said,
a
forced
smile
pressed
to
her
lips.
“I’ve
learned
to
lower
my
expectations
when
dealing
with
you.”
I
wasn’t
sure
if
she
was
being
serious
or
not.
I
watched
her
coming
toward
me
with
her
blue
jeans
and
tan
sweater
on.
My
gaze
scanned
the
length
of
her
body.
I
wished
she’d
wear
clothes
that
fit
her
better.
The
ones
she
had
on
were
too
loose
for
my
liking.
Of
course,
if I
got
a
say,
I’d
say
she
skip
the
clothing
altogether.
I’d
accidentally
seen
her
once
wearing
a
tiny
black
bikini.
Well,
wearing
most
of
it
that
is.
She
was
sunbathing
in
her
backyard
and
I
had
responded
to a
call
about
a
missing
dog.
I
leaned
over
the
fence
to
see
if
he’d
run
that
way
and
found
Beth
lying
there
with
the
strings
undone,
leaving
her
pink
nipples
partially
exposed
to
me.
I
could
still
remember
the
curve
that
her
hip
took,
and
the
way
her
navel
wanted
to
poke
out,
but
didn’t.
She
wasn’t
stick
thin
like
so
many
women
were
now.
Maybe
if
she
showed
off
her
figure
a
little
bit
more,
it’d
hide
the
fact
she
had
some
serious
personality
quirks.
I
doubted
it
though.
By
the
looks
of
her
now,
she’d
been
awakened
out
of a
deep
sleep
to
try
to
get
the
scoop.
I
had
to
laugh
when
I
saw
tiny
wisps
of
her
blonde
hair
come
loose
from
its
hair
tie.
During
the
day,
she
was
always
so
put
together,
but
in
the
middle
of
the
night,
she
was
as
real
as
the
rest
of
us.
That
was
good
to
know,
although
I
had
fantasized
many
a
night
that
she
slept
in
tiny
black
silk
panties
with
a
garter
belt
and
fishnet
hose.
But
hey,
what
guy
didn’t
think
about
that?
Beth
was
nine
years
my
junior,
but
it
didn’t
stop
me
from
thinking
about
her—obsessing
to
be
exact.
Karen,
my
wife,
had
been
gone
since
Justin
was
three.
She
said
we’d
married
too
young,
and
she
needed
her
freedom.
I
agree,
we
did
marry
too
young.
We
were
both
just
eighteen
when
she
got
pregnant.
She
saw
it
as
the
end
of
our
lives.
I
viewed
it
as
the
beginning.
It
was
hard
for
the
first
couple
of
years.
Damn
hard.
I’d
enrolled
at
the
academy
and
was
taking
classes
all
day
and
working
security
at
night.
When
I
wasn’t
at
school
I
was
working.
It
was
hard
for
us,
but
I
knew
it’d
be
better
on
us
in
the
long
run.
Two
weeks
after
I
started
my
first
police
job,
Karen
walked
out
on
me.
She
dropped
Justin
off
at
the
sitter’s
and
I
hadn’t
seen
her
since.
Now,
Justin
was
about
to
turn
eighteen
and
getting
ready
to
graduate,
and
I
was
chief
of
police.
Maybe
it
had
been
for
the
best
that
she’d
left.
As I
watched
Beth
come
closer
to
me,
I
wondered
why
I
wasn’t
dating
more.
I
wasn’t
old
by
anyone’s
standards.
I’d
just
turned
thirty-six
and
had
a
better
build
than
most
of
my
son’s
friends.
Still,
I
didn’t
feel
right
dating.
Karen
was
gone,
and
I
didn’t
love
her
anymore,
but
I’d
never
gotten
a
divorce.
At
least
I
hadn’t
yet.
It
hadn’t
seemed
important
to
me.
My
job
consumed
most
of
my
time,
and
Justin
was
too
high
a
priority
to
make
room
for
a
woman.
I
wasn’t
a
monk
either.
I’d
had
sex
since
Karen
walked
out
on
me,
but
I’d
never
had
a
relationship.
Until
Beth,
I
never
thought
I
wanted
one.
Something
about
that
feisty
little
blonde
made
me
want
to
force
her
to
commit.
My
mind
raced
back
to a
week
earlier
when
I’d
run
into
the
city
for
a
seminar.
It
was
a
two-day
planned
event
that
left
me
having
to
get
a
hotel
room
for
the
night.
A
few
of
us
had
decided
to
go
to a
bar
for
a
drink.
I
ended
up
meeting
a
hot
little
number
whose
boyfriend
was
out
of
town
for
the
weekend.
I
could
still
feel
her
lips
around
my
cock.
She
was
one
of
those
women
with
extra
full
lips.
The
kind
that
make
you
wonder
what
sort
of
work
she
had
done
to
achieve
such
perfection.
She
spent
most
of
the
night
on
her
knees
making
remarks
about
how
‘gifted’
I
was.
I
nearly
grinned
thinking
about
it.
She’d
been
one
of
the
rare
few
who
begged
me
to
come
all
over
her
face.
I
did,
of
course.